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Kristoff St. John’s Son Commits Suicide




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It is with great sadness to report that Julian St. John, son of The Young and the Restless’ Kristoff St. John (Neil Winters), has died. News of Julian’s passing came to light from a posting by his mother, Mia, on Saturday, November 29. Julian St. John died on Sunday, November 23 from an apparent suicide.

“Our son was the light of our lives, an artist with a beautiful mind and spirit. He fought long and hard against an illness for which there is no cure. Unfortunately the pain became too great for him and I dare not say he lost the battle — he simply chose to set himself free,” wrote Mia on
“My fight for mental health will continue. They may not find a cure in my lifetime, but we can try and prevent the loss of another beautiful soul.”

“And so the legend continues…once upon a time,” wrote Kristoff on his Twitter and Facebook pages with a link to a post on the Laguna Beach Coastline Pilot website featuring Julian’s art.

If you suspect someone may be suicidal, don’t think it will just “fix itself”. Here’s some signs to tell if your loved one may be contemplating suicide:

1. Talking About Suicide
If someone you know is talking about harming himself or says that he doesn’t want to live, take it seriously.

He or she may be at risk for a suicide attempt, particularly if they feel trapped or hopeless and is withdrawing from friends and family.

2. Feelings of Guilt
Madelyn Gould, PhD, a professor of clinical epidemiology in psychiatry at Columbia University Medical Center, in New York City, says that excessive and inappropriate feelings of guilt—a common symptom of depression and anxiety—are something to be on the lookout for as well.

“You start to feel guilty about things—letting people down—and someone else who’s listening would say, ‘But you’re not,’” says Gould. “It’s just this very unrealistic guilt.”

3. Drug Use and Excessive Alcohol Use
Some agitated and anxious people turn to drugs and alcohol for relief—potential warning signs for suicide. You might not be an alcoholic or a drug abuser, but if you take things to make yourself feel better or to numb you, that makes you more vulnerable because it impairs your judgment and makes your thinking not as clear.

Substance use can also contribute to impulsivity. Studies have shown that up to 80% of all suicide attempts are done on the spur of the moment, with very little planning.

4. Buying a Firearm
One of the loudest and clearest warning signs is buying a gun. Access to a firearm in the home significantly increases the risk of a suicide—by up to 10 times, according to a 2008 article in the New England Journal of Medicine. Guns account for less than 10% of all suicide attempts, but those involving guns are far more likely to be fatal.

Two to one, men complete suicide more often than women. It’s largely because of the method they choose, not because of the intent that they have. Men tend to use firearms; women tend to take overdoses.

Whatever the situation, don’t leave that person alone. Let them know you’re going to get help and/or call 1-800-273-TALK.